adversity reveals a person's true character...

(this is from my other blog site so i have to truncate some of the sensitive parts of this post)

i miss talking to you, but i guess that's very inappropriate now........and don't get me started about the scared part....<lines truncated>.....  


fine! yes, i'm scared of you now..... <parts truncated> you may not be aware of it but you are trying to do things that would make me get mad or cry <lines truncated>......darn, your coping mechanism <lines truncated>

but don't worry, im trying to be oblivious about it........ <some lines truncated> i personally believe that  adversity reveals a person's true character.....i saw the differences on how both of you reacted......<some lines truncated>.....

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anyway, i'm not writing today just to talk about what happend........<some lines truncated> .......last night i was just thinking about how <lines truncated>

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but oh well, i know im not good at waiting but i pretty much have a high level of  tolerance when dealing with people's characters/baggages/negative aura/coldness/mean-ness/etc.......... initially, i do get mad ofcourse, but after i calmed down (anger clouds reasoning) thats when i start processing the situation.........it's difficult, yes, specially when a person is trying so hard to stretch your patience to it's limits.......... but i try to see the good side in everyone............ yeah, "try", because i'm not a saint and being tolerant to a person who's mean to you is very difficult..............

anyway,

yes, so no matter how weird, mean or cold they can be, they are still human beings......... most of the time the reason they react how they react is because of what happend to them in the past and sometimes we wont understand why they react that way because we havent experienced what that person have experienced........... we havent felt what he had felt that time.......... plus there are more things to consider like we all have different upbringing, different principles, different life experiences.............. that's why given a situation, everyone reacts differently............ that's why i think it's really important that we give everyone the benefit of the doubt......... suspend judgment......... because you don't know that person's past.......... and i want to be treated that way too.......... i dont want people to judge me just because of the 10% they know about me.........  so yeah, the golden rule applies.....

i know, i know you're not in any way interested on any of that......i just thought i'd write my thoughts........ i have withdrawal symptoms too, you know...... but i dont try to be ice-cold when dealing with my adversity, i write......

funnies

got that from here:

http://xkcd.com/518/

 

is this what you really want?

at the end of the day can you honestly say:

"yes, i'm happy with what i'm doing.... this is what i want
 and i got what i want without stepping into anyone's toes
 i played fair..
 i didn't take advantage of anyone
 and i didn't allow greed to take the best of me"

can you?

really?

sure, sure...
whatever makes you sleep at night....

i'm just messing with you, of course you can..... give yourself a pat on the back because there are some people i know who can't which is really sad..... but that's the life they chose to live and they're getting used to it and to make matters worst they'll do whatever it takes to justify their wrong doings.....

pathetic...

so very pathetic...

when a person starts becoming greedy....

he/she makes very stupid decisions....

i have overheard that while i was eating my lunch at our office breakroom and while my co-workers are talking about what happend to citibank.....

i have been a victim of greed..... in all flavors and in all forms..... from the moment i learn my ABCs until i learn the null pointer exception..... and probably would still will if i won't be too careful next time.....

"greed makes stupid decisions"....i couldn't agree more.... very true indeed....

very.

true.

that's it..im getting a tattoo...

i've been thinking about this since i got my first henna tattoo in boracay (that was 2006) and i almost got a real one two years ago but i chickened out.....

i'm trying again....

i'm getting a 2-inch colored butterfly on my right belly near the hipbone on sunday.... low enough so it wouldn't get stretched that much when i get pregnant someday.....

but ofcourse since i'm such a wimp i might end up bolting out from the tattoo artist again, lol.....we'll see...

some will punish you for being successful...

some people will punish you and will make you feel guilty for being successful...
they can't stand the thought that you can be good at doing more than two things at the same time, it drives them nuts....
and so they will try to hurt you, to pull you down....
and they will try to sweet-coat it as something that you should gratefully swallow....


Lord, i pray for patience...
and humility...
and the strength to not succumb to any ill feelings towards them....

still you gotta make up your mind...

I know you need a friend, someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love, there's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do
I heard you on the phone, you took his number
Said you weren't alone, but you'd call him soon
Isn't he the guy, the guy who left you cryin'?
Isn't he the one who made you blue?
When you remember those nights in his arms
You know you gotta make up your mind

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

What you gonna say when he comes over?
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointment
Oh girl, what you gonna do?
Your heart keeps sayin' it's just not fair
But still you gotta make up your mind

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above