if she knows how to quit him?

she walked one morning by the shore....... she can see the ends of the rays of the sun peeking out, slowly, very slowly, taking its sweet time, as if teasing her.......... she loves the sunrise better than the sunset.......... sunrise, for her symbolizes a new hope, a new day, a fresh "me".......... sunset is romantic, yes, very romantic in fact...... but it makes her sentimental, she hates goodbyes and for her that's what sunset represents.........she let the sun take its sweet time to rise and she decided to sit on the sand while she allow herself to be kissed by the sea breeze............

she'll wait....... she'll wait.......

instinctively she laid her hands on the sand........... grasp all that she can grasp, formed a fist and lifted her fist up in the air while she slowly watch the sand pour down............. she wishes she can pour her heart out like that....... like the sand softly sliding down without a care in the world............ without fearing to be judged or to be condemned........ she wishes she has someone who would listen and just allow her to be her and accept her as her........... someone who would listen without malice, without prejudice......

"i'm korean....do you date asians? i know asian girls in the u.s. don't date asian guys these days"
"i'm not in the dating scene, just to let you know"
"i hear ya on the dating thing. its better to just hangout and have fun."

never say never.

she looks over the horizon where the sea and sky meet to kiss....... the riot of colors are magnificent.......... slowly she saw his face smiling at her ............ oh, that cunning face again............ she shook her head.......... why is she allowing a person like him to come into her life.......... why is she torturing herself............ she wishes she knows how to quit him.............. he's like these cold tiny waves kissing her feet........ no matter how she tried to move her feet away from it the waves just keep coming back and it's always stronger than the last one.........

how many times did she try to "hibernate"? how many times did she go on "hiatus"? how many times did she said her goodbyes? yeah, a LOT........... she lost count already................ one time she thought she was able to put him behind her................. she thought she had fogotten him but she was surprised that he was still able to silently crawl his way back to her like a thief in the night........ he came back when she's most vulnerable........ he just wouldn't let her go and he knows oh so well how to bring her back........... problem is, he doesn't want to let her go but he doesn't want to keep her either............. talk about irony........

someday....... someday..... she'll know how to quit him...... just wait..... just wait.....

just wait until the sun rises......