Monday, April 27, 2009

saying goodbye is never an easy thing...

i decided it's time to let go of everything that's:

1. been bothering me
2. been hurting me
3. been driving me nuts
4. all of the above

i have tried to let go of all those things one at a time so i wouldn't get overwhelmed...... yeah, have think these over a lot of times and it took a lot of courage and humility and will power to finally let go...... it's difficult, really difficult and i almost don't want to do it anymore but prayer is powerful...... i have to bombard the heavens with prayers every single day and almost 3x a day so that i could get the courage to say my goodbye......... and it helped me big time..... it helped me do what i have to do......

now i need to hibernate..... i need some time to mourn over all these and let these things to sink into my tortured brain cells.....


p.s.
yep, that explains the car, the rockband 2 and the new netbook, lol..... i need diversions...

mike, if you're reading this.... i'm taking the parking slot right next to the dumpster, where i won't run over anyone, haha....

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

i worry about growing old alone


no wedding ring?
nope.

no engagement ring?
nope.

no promise ring? no boyfriend? no boytoy?
nope. nope. nope.but i do have a lot of friends.


why?
why do i have a lot of friends?

no, i mean why are you single?

oh boy, that question again.

ok, here's the thing...... i do worry about myself sometimes..... i worry about growing old alone...... dying alone...... and all other thoughts i could think of to torture myself, i'm weird that way sometimes....... sometimes i expect the worst because i don't want to get disappointed that much to the point that i'm becoming a pessimist........ but anyway, after some time those thoughts gets old that i would turn oblivious about those things.......... it gets so old that i get tired of it that i bore myself to the core sometimes....and so i stop..... well, not until something would trigger it....... but i'm still good........... i really thank God for my friends....... they distract me from thinking sad thoughts........ they make me feel wanted...... they make me feel alive and pretty and happy....... and most of all they feed me..... lol....

growing old alone still scares me, i'll be honest..... but i do know i just have to be patient..... that my time will come..... i know he's out there somewhere....the right time just hasn't come yet for us to meet.....



p.s.
am i looking?
no.
so no stalkers, please...

Thursday, April 09, 2009

what the ff-pack!



packing tips from a packing freak



so, are you a light packer? or the can-i-bring-the-whole-house packer? 

which ever type you are i'm sure you'll find these tips useful.... just take your pick....... choose whatever is applicable for your travelling needs.....





















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1. i always bring photo copies of the mug-shot page of my passport for when a hotel or bank needs to have my passport....also so that in case my passport gets lost it would be easier to have it replaced...bring photocopies of your plane tickets (or etickets) too.....also bring postcards from the philippines.....that way you're promoting our country's tourism too!

2. malong: a large piece of lightweight material, it can be used as a quick-drying towel, blanket, pillow, etc.... and did i mention you can use this as cover if you have to make "pupu" in the middle of the mountain? just have 2 people hold it for you while you're inside, LOL  ...... yep, very versatile indeed!

3.  zip-lock bags: never go anywhere without ziplock bags in various sizes...... atleast i don't....... you can put loose change, keys, etc, in a ziplock bag before going through security; also shampoo, conditioner, toothpaste, and other toiletries so that you can easily see each one of them without having to make your fingers guess which one is which.........they are good, too, for keeping light colored/white (like undies and swimsuits) clothing clean...... or for storing in used undies and socks......



4. clothes are less likely to crease if you roll rather than fold them...

5. put your extra camera lenses in a thick ankle sock....you can toss them in your day pack without worrying about damage and they take up less room than bulky lens cases.


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6. tie something distinctive, like a ribbon, to your luggage handle for quick spotting at airport carousels..very helpful i tell you..specially if there are hundreds of people carrying the same color and luggage style...

7. don't forget chargers and/or batteries for all the electronic items you take with you.

8. instead of those bulky bottles try bringing the trial sizes or sachets.....that would give you enough space in your bag...


9. if you have a fancy camera, a little black electrician’s tape across the brand name discourages thieves...what appears to be a generic camera is almost worthless to those who regularly “hunt” canon, leica, nikon, and so on.

10. bring a small spray bottle...... this is most useful for wrinkled clothes..........i use this even when i'm at home and i'm too lazy to iron my clothes, lol........


anyway, so how? get a hanger and hang your clothes, spray water on the creases, leave it overnight and voila! the creases are gone... also good to carry when you're off for some beach escapades........spray water on your hair before dipping to the water...... that way your hair won't get too soaked w/ salt water .......but a leave-on conditioner is much better......

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11. money belt bag (samsonite's are nice) is a must specially if you're travelling out of the country...prying eyes won't see it and you'll never notice it's there...i usually put my passport here, extra credit cards and my money...take note, don't put your allowance for the day in here...it's not smart to peek into your money belt bag frequently...put ur daily travel allowance in your pocket... extra money and important stuff should go here...i also wear this while asleep specially if you're like me who doesn't mind staying in hostels... i just take it off when taking a bath..but i still bring it with me and hang it in the bathroom... guard this with your life!


12. consider travel or 'cargo' style trousers with plenty of gusseted pockets to put things in....these should be washable, and do not need dry cleaning, so you can wash them in the shower at night and they'll be dry enough to wear by morning (this is the reason why i'm crazy about lightweight cargo pants  )


13. space saver bags are most useful if you're bringing in fluffy towels or sweaters... all you have to do is put your bulky clothing in these bags, get a vacuum cleaner, put in those tubies and placed the tube inside these bags to suck the air out and your done! very good for packing winter jackets.....

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Tuesday, April 07, 2009

love is not for the selfish..


Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken.If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal.Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements.Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness.But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change.It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.To love is to be vulnerable.


- [C.S. Lewis]


i will again give a talk for the next CLP ..... last time it was talk #5 ( you can watch that talk  here )  this time it's talk #6 (after pestering arvs and minette to give me that talk, lol).........

i was looking for this quote and thank goodness googling "love and casket" did the trick..... i remember blogging about this quote 5 years ago.... and i find it amusing that i can make use of this quote again...... don't u just love c.s. lewis?


Wednesday, April 01, 2009

humility vs justice

should i just keep quiet and practice humility?
just allow God to take care of "them" (the two of them)?
is it better to keep quiet? to just suffer in silence?

but how about my pride? ok, forget the pride, how about my rights?

i want to stand up for my right.....
i don't want them to think that i can just be trampled on....... that i'll just keep quiet and accept the beating in silence....... but i don't have money to pay for the lawyer and i guess they're aware of that and maybe that's why they're ignoring me...........

i know they have good hearts...... i hope someday they'll realize what they're doing....... and that they (2 of them) will realize that money isn't everything........


p.s.
still haven't heard from those two.... almost 6 months and counting.....
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