Saturday, August 30, 2008

what am i doing here again?

an is there anything written on my face that says "cmon, break my heart"?

Friday, August 29, 2008

off to the vet


tomorrow is keesha's appointment to the vet........ i need to take her to the vet within 7 days after getting the kitten............ the vet is just 2.2 miles away from where i live (6 minutes drive) and i can just walk if i want to...... actually, yeah, maybe i'll just walk..... google says it's just a 39 minute walk, i need the exercise anyway.....

been online shopping for pet carrier....... i need an inconspicious one and found these:



i actually already have a duffel bag pet carrier that i bought when i was supposed to get a puppy and that's what i used when i picked up keesha from the pet store....

anyway, which one do you think is better? i kinda like the blue one..... but the black one is more inconspicious....... watchatink?

Thursday, August 28, 2008

i need to start running...


running is my de-stresser.....

well, ofcourse shopping is too, LOL

now, if only i could find a good trail that's walking distance from my apartment.....



p.s.
i'm going to cape may this weekend....dunno when exactly, but i just had to....and no, you can't come, i want to be alone.....

i'm not good at accepting rejection




it makes me feel so insecure... and ugly... and fat.... and ugly and fat....and ugly and fat....



and fat...and fat... and f***in' fat...



well....



i can eventually..... i mean, i've been rejected countless times so it shouldn't be a biggie, right? but each rejection is different and each time i have to undergo a very slow process until i can finally shrug it off.......





don't worry, i'll live..... time is my ally, it always has been and always will be...





O.C. kitten?


i saw keesha walk to the bathroom and she went inside her litter box, err, jar.....she dug a little, dug some more and then some and then she finally settled in to do her business.... when she's finished she dug again and came out of her litter jar......

her tail was still touching the litter jar when she turned her head back as if contemplating whether she had to go back or not but finally she went back..... and dug.......... i think she's hiding her poop...... then came out.....

looked back again, went back to her litter and dug..... went out.... then went back in then dug....... she did that for 4 times........ this is when i decided to ask her what's going on and she just ran out from her litter which is my cue that i can clean her litter box............ but boy, she did a good job hiding her poop.......

O.C.? or do i just need to add more litter?

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

cry your eyes out

right now. i just want to go to bed and cry my eyes out.

don't ask.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

sky dining?


whoever thought of this is sheer genius.....

http://cosmos.bcst.yahoo.com/up/player/popup/indexFP.php?rn=3906861&cl=9455253&ch=4226714

p.s.
it would be nice if you have a beautiful skyline as backdrop...

Monday, August 25, 2008

keesha update...


right now she's playing with one of her toys...... i sometimes have the feeling that she has a short-term memory, lol..... because sometimes she would just come to me and then after a while she would start hiding from me as if this was the first time she saw me.....

anyway, i just received an email from someone...... i'm half ready for that actually but still it's difficult to accept......... but i'll be ok..... i always do...... i just need some time to let it all sink in......... good thing i have keesha to keep me company.....

my baby...


keesha's at home trying to make herself comfy (i hope)......

i went to pet plus at horsham to pick her up around lunch time (super super thanks again mike) and mike was so nice to drive me to my apartment and he waited at the parking lot until i finished making keesha comfy in my apartment.............

i'm at the office right now and can't wait for 5pm..... i still need to introduce her to her bed and the real litter box ............ what do i mean by real? i have a plain litter box lying on my bathroom right now that i want to use only for a day or two......... so why don't i just be like any other normal cat owners? i want an inconspicious litter box that's why....... keesha and i are sharing a bathroom and i don't want an ugly plain looking litterbox ruining my interior, lol.....

anyway......

i bought an automatic feeder too which was delivered just today......... i also got her a scratch post and condo but keesha has to wait for a week or two for that......... meanwhile, i need to buy her more toys (she has just two)............. but she does has a bed (matching my theme, black and red :P) .......... that's the only way she could sit right next to me on my sofa.......... oh, she's off limits in my bedroom......

Friday, August 22, 2008

leaving my country and moving to -- europe? europe!

some of my friends would ask me if i'm thinking of staying here in the u.s. for good....my answer? yes... my lawyer, employer and i are doing some of the paperworks to do just that........but then again at the back of my head i still want to "move around"...... i still want to try and work in australia and/or u.k......heck, i don't even care if i ended up as a librarian in rome........ what better way to learn about that particular country but to live and work there for atleast a year.......... you won't learn anything about a place in a 3-day visit, unless you really immerse yourself in the culture and really rub elbows with the locals........ but well, who knows, an opportunity might just come out of the blue........so, yeah, one day at a time, err, one country at a time? LOL

there's just one problem........ if i do decide to move to another country i would risk leaving friends and loved ones behind--again......... i don't mind starting all over again, i don't mind the adjustment stage but leaving familiar faces is what's hard...... i remember one time a friend of mine said something like:

"maybe the reason you're still not married is because you can't stay in one place and the man who loves you can't keep up with you"

that statement kinda pissed me off, that's because there's a ring of truth to it...... add the fact that i don't believe in long distance relationship anymore......... absence makes the heart grow fonder? nah, more like absence makes the heart go "wander".......... anyway, and there's this one guy who told me once:

"someday, you'll meet someone who would make you stay in one place"

.......obviously, i haven't met that person yet......... actually, i thought i did.... but he got someone else pregnant (and no, we're not on a break)......

anyway......

there's still this burning desire of living and working in another continent but right now i'm still happy with where i am......... and it helps that the feeling of homesickness is slowly fading away......... actually, it's not homesickness that gets me, it's loneliness which i sometimes mistaken for homesickness......... which reminds me, i might not go and visit the philippines until after 2 years...... i have some place/s else to go to next year (sssssh max!)....... actually, i was supposed to go somewhere this year, sorta like a birthday gift for myself but i have paper work expenses to take care of.......

looks like im going to be a mommy..


yep, got myself a kitten...

and i'm naming her allesy....... she's a light orange tabby kitten....


saw her around lunch time at pet plus-horsham (thanks mike!)..... and she's just adorable! it was love at first sight, hehe.......  i want to take her home with me today but i need to buy her stuff first...... plus i'm going to NY tomorrow and i don't want to leave her alone for almost 2 days.....so---

i'm getting her on monday!

crossing 3 states in a day again...



yep......

philadelphia-new jersey-new york......

don't you just love the train system?

see you tomorrow nette, chris and carl!

Thursday, August 21, 2008

fine dine-in, 3-course meal for as low as $35? hell yeah!


how is this possible? because it's restaurant week in philly again!! woo hoo!

so what the heck is restaurant week...here's a nice read from philafoodie's blog
for list of participating restos, here's the link --> http://www.opentable.com/promo.aspx?m=13&ref=1352&pid=95

i tried this last year but i just tried pompei (italian resto) and their food is really good!

here's what i want to try this year:

- estia (greek)
- tangerine (mediterranean)
- cuba libre (cuban)
- zot (belgian)
- patou (french)

fine dine-in, 3-course meal for $35? hell yeah!

http://www.opentable.com/promo.aspx?m=13&ref=1352&pid=95

for those who love filipino dishes...


.... you might want to add this app in your facebook :P

http://apps.facebook.com/pinoy-dishes-jfcaa/

no pressure.....lol

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

random blah-ness..

 


+ feeling extra lazy...


+ can't wait for friday..

+ i want to buy a new mattress (posture-pedic or tempur-pedic) but the prices make me cry....

+ submitted an adoption form for this baby (http://www.petfinder.com/petnote/displaypet.cgi?petid=11429289)...application was declined, bummer...oh, and they didnt tell me why..double bummer...

+ yeah, im getting a kitten....they said getting a dog is just cruel because they're a pack animal and they shouldn't be left alone for that long period of time specially if it's a puppy..... i'm fine with kitten and kittens are way better than a stuffed toy that one random person suggested...whoever you are, you don't have a heart! and you dont know how it feels like to miss a dog!..... anyway, so that's what im getting...... a kitten..... an orange tabby kitten.....


+ i'm going to new york this weekend to meet up with fellow ex-GXSers friends

+ i want a new mattress......oh, did i mention that already? i want a new mattress, I WANT A NEW MATTRESS! and a bed frame (i broke my bed, it's from walmart, what do you expect)....

+ asked for experience letter from one of my ex-employers... the letter was drafted by my lawyer and all they (my ex-employers) have to do is print it w/ their letterhead and have someone signed it..... that 1st  ex-employer deleted "She also demonstrated strong leadership, communication and organization skills. ".... i mean, wtf? i deserve that effin line... i worked even on sat and sun....... trained people while i was in north carolina (that's not leadership?)........ wrote technical documents that they didnt tell me to write but wrote it anyway because im anal retentive and i want to document everything (that's not organization skills?) ....... and haven't they heard my british accent and that's not communication skills? (just kidding about the british accent).......... well, yeah.... maybe because there's no one from the company who would vouch for that because they all have resigned..... but i mean, what the heck are those assesments forms for? those goal matrix whatever, that they make us do every year....or they can always ask me for references and i'll be more than willing to have my previous proj. managers email them..... but no, they just delete it...... so much for a job well done..... maybe that's the reason why people leave them..... they don't know how to appreciate a job well done... or maybe they're just bitter? that we left them? i dunno...... anyway, maybe it's just my ego talking that's why i'm making such a fuss....but, heck, i know what i'm capable of and the fact that im here working in the u.s. is enough proof that i effin deserve that effin line.....


+ im craving for a snicker bar....

+ i'm craving for buffalo chicken salad from salad works..... i wonder if one of my co-workers are going at dresher's.....

+ i had my brother send me the Experience Letter from ex-company 1 thru special mail (not fed-ex, not dhl, just ur regular post office but with the word "special" stamped on the envelope)..... and he said it costs him Php800......for real? 800 for that piece of paper???

+ i'm cranky today so proceed with caution....

 


Tuesday, August 19, 2008

love is a tricky game..

 


i was reading something online when i came across these lines...


"Love is just a tricky game. It always will be."


"Some people just lose interest like that. Kind of like an emotional ADD or something"


"...you have to understand that people change.  Good, bad, ugly, doesn't matter.  The simple fact remains that people rarely stay the person they were when you first met them.  The difference, of course, is whether you change and evolve your relationship together, or if you've met a fork in the road. So,"


sometime in your life you'll meet someone you thought you like..... then days turned to months, months turned to years, seasons change and so are we and so is our heart....... it's enevitable..... as one cliche puts it: "nothing is permanent but change" ........

sunrise has sunset but sunset has sunrise...... dawn has dusk but dusk has dawn..... summer has winter but winter has summer....... it's a cycle that we have to accept......life marches on and we have to learn how to march along or risk getting run over......


i'm sorry....


 

Monday, August 18, 2008

holding hands...

never felt so good...

and if you know where to look you'll find out what i'm talking about...

meanwhile, a pinch of salt won't hurt....

need help with Philippine stamps (super urgent)


i need to get a hard copy versions of my employment/experience letters from my previous employers....... but i'm sure my previous employers would frown on the idea that they would spend money for stamps to send me the employment letters here in the U.S. so the solution is to send them a self-addressed envelope....... but ofcourse i can't use the U.S. stamps since the self-addressed envelope will be mailed back to me from the Philippines so i need the Philippine stamps.........

my problem now is:

(1) how much Philippine stamps do i need if i want to send a 2-3 page documents from the Philippines to Pennsylvania?
(2) how can i buy Philippine stamps here in the U.S?

i hope someone answers..... this is really urgent....

thanks in advance!!!


oh no!



i love head first books and i found a head first SQL book for $11..... was about to buy it when i got this message.....

wehehehe....i thought this is funny.... specially the "typing resumes" part.... LOL

Sunday, August 17, 2008

have you been crying?

friend: have you been crying?
me: no
friend: dont lie, your eyes are all red... and your nose...everything alright?
me: yeah. it's deep impact's fault
friend: damn. you scared me.
me: when they announced that ages 50 and above automatically wont be included in the lottery for the ARK i remembered my dad and i just started bawling..... my dad's 60......
friend: aww....
me: the goodbye scenes weren't helping either...... so i pretty much cried til the movie ends....
friend: next time don't watch a movie alone..... i'll have a grand time teasing you while you cry your eyes out, lol
me: go home.
friend: lol

Saturday, August 16, 2008

if i'm a manga...

that's how i would look like if they manga-draw me.....
lol....yeah, i love hats and i love those off-shoulder type of blouses.....

you're turn --> click! ...don't forget to show us yours.....


oh, and i got this idea from christian (capncrisp)

Thursday, August 14, 2008

off to atlantic city


.... for a business trip....

our company is having their annual user conference at atlantic city to introduce the version 8 of our product to new and existing clients and it started monday........ but we, engineers aren't expected until thursday and we have to stay there until friday......

i don't know why, but i'm really not looking forward to this trip.......

oh, you know what, i think i know...... i like sleeping on my own bed (we all will be staying at the company owner's house by the shore in AC)........

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

being in the travel industry.....


amazes me sometimes......... specially when i get to find out about "stuff"........ i think it's safe to say that putting up your own business is not for the weak of heart because there would be some who would pull you down or outsiders who would steal something or people who would really get into your nerves........ but it also has its ups......thank God for nice, fun-loving people we meet because it makes all our effort worthwhile.........i just feel bad that i can't join the travel factor's trips since i live in the u.s. and i don't get to meet the TF friends (we call them friends not clients) but, oh well, i'm sure someday i will.........

anyway......

but i like working in the background........ researching.......observing....... researching..... observing....... observing........ observing........ OBSERVING...... go figure, lol.........


note to self: talk to business partners about offering tours in the U.S. (NY, Philly, Washington DC...3 lang muna)

that's it for now, got to go......... i have bug fixes to do..... oh yes, i also still enjoy being a software engineer........ still a software engineer by day and a travel agent in between, lol........

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

finally, my photography portfolio

marlincruzphotography.info

i'm still modifying some stuff and adding more photos............ my backup photo harddisk died on me and aside from crying over that stupid disk (lol) i'm trying to figure out a way on how to restore my photos (last resort is to put it in a freezer)........ anyway, so try and visit my site once in a while to see some updates......

i still want my one-man photo exhibit...


darn...... this is not good..... my dream exhibit is really taking forever........

i have an artist friend who suggested that i can have an exhibit in this one church where one of his friends had an exhibit before and it's for free, the name of the church slipped me at the moment, i just need to buy easels because i can't hang the pictures on their wall....... hmm, maybe i should consider that, problem is an easel costs $20 each and the minimum number of photos i want to exhibit is 10, so goodluck to me........... he also mentioned about this art school in philly where i could also set up my exhibit...........this suggestion is kinda blurry to me because i wasn't paying attention too much because the moment he said art school i got intimidated and my brain shifted gear to "selective" listening, lol.....

any suggestion?

i want this to happen before i turn 30....... so that means i still have, hmm, 11 years to go, LOL (ang kumontra tutubuan ng kulugo sa kilikili!)

Monday, August 11, 2008

that could never happen in real life....


have you ever felt wanting something or someone so bad but you know that something or someone is like chasing rainbows in the sky but you keep dreaming anyway?

and then you'll realize it's stupid to even nurture those thoughts because that could never happen in real life but you're stubborn and once again you close your eyes and try to dream........ what the heck, right? atleast it made you happy for a while, until reality kicks in---

i'm sad....

Sunday, August 10, 2008

we'll see where it goes....


i had a very interesting saturday but i'm still on "filter" mode......

i really wish i'm not this cynical.....but hey, like what i always tell my friends "i'm not cynical, i'm just being realistic".......

so we'll see where this goes........

Friday, August 08, 2008

looking forward...


tonight is going to be a long night......
and tomorrow...oh, tomorrow.... i'm going to see my doctor...

Facebook Developer Competition


if you've seen the Pinoy Dishes gift at facebook i authored that that but no, that's not what this developer competion means..... read on...

Hey Developers!

Round 1 for the fbFund Developer Competition has begun! We are looking to fund talented developers and entrepreneurs with up to $250,000 non-recourse grants to build great applications on Facebook Platform.

For more information, please go to http://developers.facebook.com/fbFund.php

Join us for updates at the fbFund page:
http://www.facebook.com/pages/fbFund/40962810690

Please also watch our fun video that kicks off the competition
http://www.vimeo.com/1450772

Submissions are due 8/29.

Thursday, August 07, 2008

they said im not ready for a dog *bawls*


here's the puppy i was supposed to get..... the breeder is near philadelphia airport.....

http://philadelphia.kijiji.com/c-Pets-Dogs-puppies-for-sale-BICHONS-FRISE1-f-3-M-W0QQAdIdZ62578323

and here's why i can't have a dog:

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=ArB5vOSvhuga2cpKLoorFdcazKIX;_ylv=3?qid=20080806115727AAONJCi

darn.

i want to cry...

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

ginisang dilis, anyone?






i added a new recipe....

this receipe is for those who appreciates dilis!

here -> ttp://sweetsentiments.multiply.com/recipes/item/10/Ginisang_Dilis_Sauted_Anchovies

Monday, August 04, 2008

everyone deserves the benefit of the doubt...


i have read somewhere about the comparison between a cat and a dog..... cats are usually aloof and they usually would run away from you or show you their paws and hiss....... unlike with dogs who are naturally friendly and sweet and trusting.......

and from where i read this topic, cats and dogs are also compared to people when they meet new people..... like for example in my case.... people always thought i'm reserved and quiet and aloof--yeah, just like a cat but i just need to warm up a little............. so when it comes to dating and meeting don't take it personally if at first i don't seem to like you, i just don't trust you yet and it would take time before i finally do........ like, i have this friend that it took a few months before i told that person my real name.......... just be patient, it would come..... .. but then again, there are instances when i don't really like the person.... i mean c'mon, don't be a hypocrite, we all have our preferences........ and the obvious manifestation that i don't like someone is when i ignore that person and when i refuse to go out with that person........ anyway, that's an all different story.....


so, am i dog or a cat? i would say a little bit of both...... when i was younger i was like a dog, very trusting but always take life with a "pinch of salt" but as i get older i started to become more like a cat, less trusting with each passing year and the "pinch of salt" became a "a bowl", lol...... but, well, i do meet some people that i would just trust right away.....maybe it depends on the chemistry but i trust them only to a limit.....


bottom line is, it takes time to build trust..... everyone at some point in their lives have been betrayed and hurt, ergo, the trust issues.... whether it's in a small scale or "life-altering" scale it doesn't matter because it still affects how we deal with people...... i admit that sometimes i can be very cynical when people try to befriend me or get close to me but i try to suspend judgement until i really get to know that person..... i want people to give me the benefit of the doubt and it's only fair that i do the same with them, don't you think?

 

Saturday, August 02, 2008

ayeen's cooking moment


for those who have been patiently reading my blogs you might have noticed that i would sometimes post my recipes whenever a cooking moment strikes me...... i was thinking of making a separate recipe blog but then decided that multiply's recipe page would do for now....

having said this, my apologies for flooding your inboxes with my recipes..... because all of them are originally on private mode by i decided to make them all public.....

here's what i'm talking about:

http://sweetsentiments.multiply.com/recipes


p.s.
i still have a lot that i need to post like the sotanghon soup/roll, ayeen's fried rice, my "rub", etc.... i try to take photos whenever i cook and i also try to compile my recipe because i tend to forget my own secret ingredient, lol....... anyway, the photos are all still sitting on my harddisk...... i'll post them soon....

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