two months pregnant....

it was april 23.

it was a long day. she was tired and to think it's only noon. she heard the train announcement and started gathering her things. it's her stop. she got off the train and started doing quick steps when she saw the bus. she had to catch that bus or she had to wait for another hour. her phone started ringing. nah, she'll just ignore it, she can call back once she's inside the bus. the phone stopped and started ringing again. maybe it's her agent, asking how the interview turned out. she picked up her phone and saw who's calling. it wasn't her agent. her face suddenly lit up. it was him. she smiled.

"hey..."
"hey. where you at?"

"im about to get on the bus"
"don't!"

"what?"
"don't get on that bus."

"huh, why not?"
"wait for me. i'm on my lunch break anyway. i'll just pick you up."

"oh.. ok"
"i'll be there in 15 minutes..bye!"

click.

bye.

heck. someone's excited.. he didn't even waited for her 'bye'.

she sat on a bench infront of the parking lot and just watched people passing by. driving by. running. chatting. hugging. kissing. hmm. kissing. some would smile at her and greet her. some would just go past her. she didn't notice that 15 minutes had passed already until she saw the familiar car stopping infront of her. the driver pulled the window down and asked her to hop in. gawd, she loves those smile.

"how are you? you didn't even waited for me to say my 'bye' "
"oh, i'm sorry.", he chuckled  "i was in a hurry to get here. you look good, as usual. i like it when you're wearing a suit. anyway, so... how did the interview go? how's philadelphia?"

"the interview actually went great. i have a feeling i'll get the position. most of the questions aren't that technical, more of a situational stuff and not to brag, but i'm pretty good at situational questions", she laughed  "and philadelphia is pretty!! with the old buildings and new buildings next to each other, just lovely! i want to work there..."
"that's good. that's good. hey, there's a park 5 minutes away from here that i want you to see. it's still early anyway. want to drop by and sit there for a bit? it has a lake too.."

"ooh. i'd love that. you know i like water"

10 minutes later they were sitting side by side on a bench infront of a lake. it's spring and the breeze is just heaven. not too cold. just perfect. there were kids playing on the playground. she can't help but smile whenever she hears them laughing.

he was telling her stories but she's not paying attention. she just want to savor the moment. how her hair would fly with the breeze as if dancing. she likes hearing the childrens' laughter. she likes just knowing the fact that he's there sitting next to her. here infront of this peaceful lake with his voice as if lulling her to sleep. they've been going out for months now. there are alarm bells going off everywhere but heck, she loves this man. she doesn't care. she leaned her head on his shoulder but he has other plans. he lifted her chin up and kissed her and everything just froze except the two of them.

it was their first kiss.

she got the job in philadelphia and decided to move there from new jersey. he helped her move and he visits her every week. it's just a 45-minute drive from his place so he really doesn't mind the drive. they still go to parks and boardwalks. they love going to new york. people who saw them together thought they were a cute couple, an asian holding hands with an american, they can't help but smile at them. 

they're good together. they talk about anything and everything. they laugh a lot. her mornings aren't complete without him calling her for a morning chat. he would call during lunchbreaks too and when she's on her way home. everything is just doing great. until one day.

it was september of the same year.

"i hope you're sitting down"
"actually, i just got off the bus. i'm on my way to the train station..what's going on?"
"she said she's 2 months pregnant..i can't run from my responsibilty"

"he told me he doesn't love her anymore", she thought. 2 months? 2 months pregnant? they've been together for 5 months. she almost dropped the phone. liar and a cheater. her world started spinning. she hang up the phone. he was still talking but all he can hear are mumblings, the rest of the things that he's trying to tell her doesn't matter to her anymore. she felt as if her heart is being savaged by a beast. no. she won't cry. she can get through this. she put her shades on and continued walking to the blue line train station.

she's 2 months pregnant. she's 2 months pregnant. she's 2 months pregnant. she's 2 months pregnant.

funny how that sentence could make her want to scream in pain. liar. cheater. she won't cry. he doesn't deserve her tears. she felt as if her body is crumpling down. she felt weak that she had to hold on tight to the rails of the escalator.  liar. cheater. maybe she'll just call out today. but no. she won't. if she calls out she would just be thinking of him. he doesn't deserve that much attention. liar. cheater. she had to make it to work and keep herself busy. no, don't cry. liar. cheater. the door of the train opened and she let herself in. walked all the way to front seat and sat there. she heard the bell signalling the train is leaving....

and she started sobbing....

..it was year 2007