on grieving process and pills...

is there a pill that would make you stop crying? i've been in crying marathon for weeks now and i know that's not good...... well, the only good thing that came out of it is that i'm losing weight...... i don't look like a tadpole because of my big tummy anymore, lol...

not to be melodramatic again but my life stinks right now and i am so very distracted...... a lot of things are happening all at the same time........... but i know i'll be ok..... grieving still, but i'll cope up......

i think volunteering in a hospice is somehow helping me in my grieving process........ when you're with people whose days are numbered and whenever you hear the stories that terminally ill people share or hear stories of fellow volunteers' experiences you will learn to appreciate your life a lot more and it gives you an eye opener on how to live your life better and how lucky you are to still have a full life ahead of you........ the other thing that i'm thankful about is learning about the stages of grief because it helped me understand my pain.......

there are 5 stages of grief: (1)denial and isolation, (2)anger, (3)bargaining, (4)depression, (5)acceptance.......... but these doesn't have to happen one after the other......... like, ok i'm in stage 1 today and after a month i should be at stage 2 and so on............. no, it could be stage 1 today and stage 5 tomorrow and then something would remind you of something and you're back in stage 1 or stage 2 in the morning and then stage 4 at night.......... or you can be feeling all 2 or 3 or all 5 stages at the same time........

i have been in and out of those stages for these past weeks except for stage 1 and 5...... i'm done with isolation and denial and have accepted the reality...... what i'm struggling with right now is 2, 3 and 4.......


nah, i don't need a pill to make me stop crying...... that's how i cope up.....