and i hate to beg....
i don't like it when i get so dependent on anyone...... i hate it when i can't do things because it would depend on another person's availability or whether or not that other person is in the mood to help me or not........... i don't like being in debt with anyone......... i don't like "utang na loob" ...............it just makes me so uncomfortable that i would make someone go out of her/his way to do something for me.......... i mean, who am i to receive such attention............ that's why i try to make sure i do something in return when i ask favors from anyone.........
i pride myself as someone independent, i may have said that a million times and i hate the thought that someone has control over "some" things that makes me happy......... that i can't do something i really want because that person has the "control" and there's nothing i can do but sit, sit, sit, sit, effin sit and effin wait..........
and yes, i'm not good at handling subtle rejections......... i'd rather know how you feel about the favor rather than coming up with all kinds of alibis because that's a sure way to piss me off............. i'm not demanding and i'm not a brat and i know how to be considerate.......... just don't effin lie........... if you do, make sure i don't find out that you effin lied......
p.s.
i'm good at giving anyone the benefit of the doubt....just an fyi....
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