we pursue that which retreats from us...

love cannot exist without reciprocity......

love is in the act of being considerate, sharing, trusting, responding, sheltering...... she walked that walk and the "cold" wind didn’t...... love demands the return of it, she should be getting what she's putting in....... she already gave enough of what she can give....... the "cold" wind doesn't want to put in anything......

she really wants to turn her back to the "cold" wind, but she can't..... she just can't........ she knows why......

"we pursue that which retreats from us...."

she wishes she's strong enough......... she wishes she can stand up for her decision but she just changes her mind a lot............ actually, it's not the mind that's taking over and the "cold" wind knows how to take advantage of it..........

p.s.
it was september........ it was september of the previous year when she met the "cold" wind for the first time.......... and yesterday, she heard the "cold" wind's voice and she wasn't supposed to.........